Things have changed a lot...My present life is nothing but a piece of bull shit that Im living these days.I dont cherish even a single day of my life....The reasons are one but plenty.....I stand as a looser as of nowon both personal and professional fronts of life....May be the most imp and the only fronts in my life...The very fact that she is never gonna be with me kills me everyday....i cant help it at all....It is like somethingwhich has gotten into my unconcious self....something that i cant forget even if i want to.....I myself am so amzed that how can i love someone so seriously and so deeply.....that...that everything except her haslost meaning in my life.....evryday...damn it every damn day my eyes open with a thought of her......no matter whether I talk to her or not...no matter whether i see her or not...no matter I try to distance myself so far away from her...even den.....not even a single morning occurs widout her thought......im crippled....feel so helpless.....i cant donething in dis world to make her be with me....n da reason probably is only one....It was always a one sided love....What i see in her,probably she has never seen in me....a life long companion...more dan a frnd....for me she is everythingin dis world.....one single talk with her makes my day....it relieves me of all my worries n tensions...no matter whether i share them with her or not....just..jst her presence makes so much of difference.....n i really dont knowwhat i wud do wen she wud go away....i cant see her with anyone....she is da most precious possesion of mine...hw can i see her being given to somebody else...hw can i see someone else loving her and most importantly...hw can i seeshe loving somebody else back......I cant..i just cant...i have tried each and everything in dis world to be normal...to try n forget my love for her,to come over her...but have failed again n again...n as i feel now...she is truly in my blood....it seems more dramatical than what itactually is.....bt i eat,sleep,drink & live her every moment of my life.....I somehow am loosing this battle....I have drained all my energy....Im down and out.....Fallen apart and broken....into pieces...millions of dem.....and as i try n regroup myself....i saw a blade of axe coming over my head....may be dis is da last blow.....may be dis would end all da misery and pain i have been facing.....by finishing me once and for all...but...dat doesnt happen....it only breaks me...further into more pieces....to live dis pain without dying.....to keep fighting a lost battle....
I cant take it anymore....i cant fight anymore....and as a result...I have decided...."TO RUN AWAY"
Yes...so much unlike me is this decision....That is not what ankit used to be....probably thats not what ankit is.....
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